Thursday, August 10, 2006
Oh well's
I've been spending much time with the family these few days, even my sis was surprised at how 'good' I am. Oh well.
Tuesday was my dad's bday and we sorta celebrated it over at my elder sister's hse. 'Sorta' because the actual reason my parents were there in the 1st place was to actually babysit my nephew and nieces, and there was no cake or satay or his fav food (I dunno what, actually). But he got his present, a watch, which he likes. So that's good. Aren't birthdays all about presents?
I dint exactly go up to my dad and say 'happy birthday'.. I hardly do, I don't know why.. I remember in J1, my mum actually called me at school to remind me to wish him that day. In the end I still didn't. I have no qualms abt asking for money from him but when it comes to personal stuff like apologising or saying his cooking was great, it just gets too hard.
As I grow older, I realise I just drift further and further from him.. Like I told some close friends, I think it was really because I see so much of him in me, that it turns me off. I'm stubborn, head-strong, I hate to admit I'm wrong, I am bad at making small conversations, oh my, reeeeally bad at that, and I'm not very good with words. Maybe, I blame him for all these traits, traits I perceived I inherited.
I start blaming him for everything now.
I hope this changes. I know it's up to me to do sthg abt it. I don't feel like doing anythg now, but I just hope when I finally do, it wont be too late. I shall always pray for him. Hey, I wished him "happy birthday" in my heart! Hahaa.. It's something ok.... :D
Anw, I learnt on Tues also that, of all pple to 'talk' to, my aunt's not one. She and my mum are like best friends. I bet they talk abt bra size even at this age. So one day some time ago when I was over at my aunt's hse, I said... my mum cannot say anything already to me to not have a 'kawan' now while I'm studying and giving reasons like oh later I cant cope or concentrate.. because oh well, look at my bro's
ahem.So on Tues over dinner she (my mum) was saying that my aunt asked me "kenaper, Nurul dah ader kawan" lepas tu apparently I "senyum-senyum". THIS IS ABSOLUTELY UNTRUE!! I OBJECT!! I did NOT "senyum-senyum" ok?!!! So she was teasing me lar abt my "kawan" and how "tak lamer lagi lah nampak-nampaknya" (til I get hitched). Sheesh!!! I said "maner ader" quite convincingly I think, and LUCKILY, earlier on the way to the house, I was just talking to my other sis that yea I'm going for honours etc etc, so she helped me out and said "takder lar, dia lagi nak belajar 3 tahun lagi.." Yay!! Hahaa..
But my
other sister, the elder one, was like, tak puas hati and tried to cucuk me some more. She said, "Agaknyer dia yang pakai baju sepasang colour merah tak, orang lain pakai baju biru, gambar atas meja Nurul tu.." She was referring to my FOC Group photo, the frame's on my desk. THANKS eh... Oh well, I think she knows. She, for SOME I DUNNO WHAT REASON, is active on Friendster, and like my Friendster tak obvious gitu kan.. Haha... I just insisted on my innocence, thank god they finally moved on to more comfortable topics.
Ok. I love my anak sedares. And I'm tired now. And hungry. And I hope I can chg my tuition timing to afternoon so I can catch fireworks fest tmr night. And go for reperio bbq on Sat. And I think I got potential to be the next Miss Universe, just ask Katak.
;)
Love!
iFLEW @ 4:55:00 pm
to the now
