Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Brighter than Sunshine
(Aqualung)
I never understood before
I never knew what love was for
My heart was broke, my head was sore
What a feeling
Tied up in ancient history
I didnt believe in destiny
I look up you're standing next to me
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
Brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
and it's brighter than sunshine
I never saw it happening
I'd given up and given in
I just couldn't take the hurt again
What a feeling
I didn't have the strength to fight
suddenly you seemed so right
Me and you
What a feeling
What a feeling in my soul
Love burns brighter than sunshine
It's brighter than sunshine
Let the rain fall, I don't care
I'm yours and suddenly you're mine
Suddenly you're mine
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun
It's brighter than the sun, sun, shine.
Love will remain a mystery
But give me your hand and you will see
Your heart is keeping time with me
iFLEW @ 1:32:00 pm
Then I see you standing there
Have you ever been to a wake?
I vaguely recall going to my grandparents'. I remember refusing when my mum told me to kiss my grandmother's forehead. And for my grandfather, I went into the room and wondered why I wasn't crying, did I not love him enough.
But I guess those wouldn't count.
So I went to my first on Friday. I expected the mood to be sombre, serious, heavy. Like if it rained, despite the many storeys of flats above us we'd be drenched. But I guess that what you see in the movies is quite true. There was a certain delicateness in the air, sorta like fragile cheerfulness. It wasnt like the cheerfulness was forced, nor was it exactly pretentious. Rather, it was like everybody refused to be sad or at least, show sadness.
My good friend Puay Hoon went around shoving oranges into the guests' faces and demanding them to have some just because
she cut them. Others were fawning over the guest book whose cover was beautifully designed by PQ. Puay Hoon nudged me towards her mother and as soon as I hugged her I felt it was as though
she was comforting me instead.
She said "Haven't seen you for so long.." and even though she was smiling, I couldn't help but feel tremendously guilty. I told her she still looked good and she continued smiling and said, "Today I off the tap. I never on."
I dint understand so I asked, "Why you never on?"
She explained, "If I on the tap then cannot stop," as her hand gestured near her eyes as if wiping away tears. Then I got it. Inside I marvelled at how strong she was.
She then took me to see her in a white sun dress with pink flowers.
It was surreal. I only remembered thinking she looked no different from being asleep. That I could just poke her in the ribs and she'd wake up. With that blur "Huh?" look she always have. Had.
After that, us pri sch classmates found each other, sat around and ate while taking turns to tell jokes and play tricks such as "How many meh mehs jump over the wall" and "Coffee Tea" and Black Magic. Fun..
It was really nice to see all the ex-Peiying and Rg pple. I have yet to understand completely what happens to our
roh, or spirit immediately after we cease breathing. IF somehow
her spirit was floating arnd that day, I think she'd be pleased. There was so much laughter, there was so much love. :)
Somehow being there that day made me feel better. I think that's the thing about wakes, or funerals. It gives a sense of closure. Satisfaction, in the most non-sadistic sense. I like closures.
Whatever it is pple say, that she had so much potential.. I'd say, I think she had done her part here.
Allah knows best. :)
iFLEW @ 1:00:00 pm
Wednesday, May 24, 2006
Run
(Snow Patrol)
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up...
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess
iFLEW @ 1:38:00 pm
As promised..
.. my floral blogskin.
Took me hours man.. Sorry if yall're blinded by the flowers, I'm just indulging myself. :)
Now for some sleep.
(Btw, I drew on my bottle alr! So far only heard ONE favourable comment, from Ana. I thk guys have no taste.)
iFLEW @ 4:19:00 am
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I have a big ego.
Sometimes that really bugs me.
Like now. Like my reluctance to say sorry, not because I don't want to, not that I don't admit I'm wrong, but just because I don't know how.
You know how pple with big ego are said to be over-confident, proud, tactless.
I thk our main problem is we're just too sensitive.
iFLEW @ 12:54:00 pm
Friday, May 19, 2006
Woohooooo~
I ran.
Yes, you read it right, I actually ran on Wed.
I saw Muk on my way to the stadium and he scowled and refused to talk to me because I told the Khatib clan earlier I cant go out, I'm sick, yet there I was going running. Cmon man, I wasn't intentionally bailing out on yall.. Ok? It's just that I WANT to get better by thurs and since J1 I realised I usually get better faster if I run. Haha yea I'm weird like that.
Anw, I did feel better afterwards, despite my ongoing dripping nose and the occasional sneezing frenzy. AND despite the sore muscles now. (
oww..)I was actually surprised I managed to maintain a faster than usual pace throughout the 6 rounds. I kept telling myself I needed to slow down or else I'd
pancet buden I still dint. I just wanted to see how far I could push myself I guess.. At the end of it I did 6 rounds plus 1 round cool-down in under 15min! HA.... I KNOW it's not
GREAT, all you weird, CRAZY,
under-9 min pple. But it's a good start for me k.. I'm proud of myself. (Hehee.. Tak malu.)
OH on my way home, I noticed this old guy trailing me.. I walked under void deck, he walk under void deck, walked through carpark, he walked through carpark, void deck again, he still followed. Wah I was qt sure
he was out to rape me man! I just walked fast fast ah.. LUCKY after a while I looked back and he was GONE! Either he had no whatsoever intention in the 1st place (RIGHT.) or a whiff of air passed by from me to him and he passed out from the odour. Haha.. Wdv man..
I did go get
my bbq chicken from causeway cold storage!! Hahahahhaa.. yea man.. I'm a happy lady.. BUT despite all the trouble I went through,
pple still complain, keras lar itu lar.. NOT NICE, KASI BALIK AH... (kidding lar.. *grins* ) I thought that it was nice! Buden again I was HUNGRY and I
mengidam it for years alr....
K k.. Watched
Mentah III: Barisan Puteri- Puteri yest with katak and fie. Overall it was great and it brought out several issues that I'd love to ponder upon with interested pple. And there were some great lines man! Funny shits! Aper fie aku jer ker can't stop laughing, kau pun per!!
SHE esp cracked up at this scene when this mum was complaining abt her
TAK GUNA teenage children. She cant help but relate cos she also
TAK GUNA hahaa
kan kan bangun lambat lagi kan tak buat kerja rumah.... The 1st play, of course, I could see how much Katak has contributed as
Advisor. It was as if the man himself was
THERE, on stage! Haha.. watch it.
Alright! Going to Bugis now with the khatib clan to collect my murtabak and fadz to fix his bag!
Adios salamos. :)
iFLEW @ 3:30:00 pm
Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Have You Ever Really Loved A Woman
(Bryan Adams)
To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?
To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
really really ever loved a woman?
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
that she's really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she's the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?
iFLEW @ 6:05:00 pm
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
*ah..CHOO!*
SO beb came back bearing several gifts, namely a dvd, a frame and A FREAKIN BUG.
As much as it breaks my heart that he's sniffing away, feeling loya at silat, no appetite to eat, it KILLS me that my throat feels just as bad and I keep sneezing away.. I mean, if I'm sick,
who's gonna take care of you right...... Right.
Anw. There's no panadol in the house now.. Will make puppy faces at my dad tmr so he'll get me some. I'll be good and stay home (and finish all my unfinished businesses, i.e. pb). Hope my MUM wont cleverly use my being sick as a reason to not allow me to Fez's play on thurs man I'd just DIE I tell you...
You know what, I like going out with beb because he notices pple the way I do. The past few times I was out with my cousins or bro or the misc, they are practically blind!! Everytime I say
"You saw that *so and so*?" they'd be like
"No"!!
BORIIIIING.. And it gets quite frustrating too because I'm ALWAYS pointing pple out because I
lurrrve to look at pple's faces or clothes or the way they act.. And then talk abt them. Not to kutuk (insult) ok.. Just comment comment only hahaa... Sometimes even admire.
On the other hand, beb usually
would notice or even if he doesnt, he'd try to catch a glimpse of the person I'm talking abt.. And he'd point out pple to me too.. (ok
NOT pple. Parts of pple, more like.. ;P)
Haaa.. it's fun!
Ok I realised I'm really quite tired alr. Eh mat limau. When's my
SWENSEN's TREAT??? Kawan-kawan, Mat Limau nak treat kita swensens ni.. Biler korang korang free?Heehee.. ;P
iFLEW @ 11:01:00 pm
Monday, May 15, 2006
I was forced to do this
Hi friends.. So my friend threatened to sever friendship if I wouldn't put a decent pic of himself. It was really hard to find.... I mean, Him? Decent? Finally found this. Hope it'll suffice.
(I'd kill for the cheeks though.. Really. Hahaa ;p)
iFLEW @ 5:50:00 pm
Sunday, May 14, 2006
counting down!
Ok so I was uploading all the tree top trail pix but haha I decided to draft that 1st, to tell yall,
he's coming back.
Haahahhahaa... Macam mana nyer impt gitu ehh...
K k.. a few hours to go.... :)
(Haha SAVE your comments, Fuhan, I know what u gonna say..)
iFLEW @ 9:52:00 pm
Picnic at West Coast!
Supposedly, our 8th May Outing was planned from waaaaaay back... Even before the start of exams! As it turned out, the venue was decided that
very morning, and only because I decided to take the opp to sekali arung recce for PB. Guess what, the actual planners, Nad and Kamie, even bailed out on us!! Tsk tsk tsk...
Haha it started out pretty "mendak", as some of you called it, I agree.. We explored the obstacle course area while Katak went jogging round the park and some pple, happily missing. ;) But after that we played Captain's Ball and Monkey and things started to pick up..
Dah penat2 burn fats of course we were famished by maghrib. But we're only to be disappointed. Most of us got Chips for our share in the Potluck. So
that was our dinner. Sungguh tak menyelerakan. Thank God Md Noor had foresight, he was the only one who brought close to REAL FOOD- Nuggets and popcorn chicken! Yumm..
Oh, us girls, being the NICE and RESOURCEFUL pple we are, went to macs to get Fries and drinks (PAY OFF YOUR DEBTS PPLE! THE DRINKS AND FRIES COST MONEY!! KESIAN HAFIE! Haha I also havent pay her...) and took 1 whole packet of sauce!!! Of every flavour imaginable! Hahaa.. The guy at the counter practically sneered at us. Oh well.
Ooh we played "Have you ever.." over dinner and heh.. we now know there
are pple who tried to make music of their fart. ;P
Too bad Faizola's not in this picture! He came later. Maly joined us for a while before vroooming off again. And I've to admit, it'd be a greater hoot if Kamie, Zahzah, Nad and Naz were there......
Click on the pic to access the whole album!
Next up, the long overdue tree top trail pix!
iFLEW @ 8:32:00 pm
Saturday, May 13, 2006
He called!
From KL!!!
All I could say was "Oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh.." which made him laugh and say I sounded so awe-struck.
I was.
It was soooo nice to hear his voice and probably for the 1st time in my life it occurred to me to thank God for Singtel and TM or whoever it was that put up all those satellites and comm infrastructure that allowed me that single moment of happiness.
I'd be contented to stick my phone to my ear for longer if not for the fact he was using his dad's phone and there are bills to worry abt (not complaining.. No bills, no money. No money, no satellite. No satellite, no call the next time. Haha..).
I miss him (how nice to hear his laugh) .
ANYWaaaaaaaayyyy.......
The good I got out of him being away was that, by desperately trying to occupy my time with other things I actually did some pretty good things.
Like watching Emma. Old show, 1997.. Very good, heartwarming, witty and well gwyneth palthrow, where can you go wrong with her.
Andddddd.... I talked to my mum.
I realised that it's really quite nice to just talk to her, I think she quite enjoyed talking to me too. Ok there are moments when I couldn't care less. You know.. How nagging to mothers is like breathing to the rest of us haha.. But I guess that's not being fair to her. She's really qt good-natured. And funny. IF, I'm not making her angry :p
So ok, she told me there was this time when I wanted to be Fauziah Latiff, some popular singer of yesteryears. Not my fault! Lotsa pple likened me to Fauziah Latiff last time, ok?! Because of my long wavy hair and big eyes maybe. And I like her! Ha.. She was recounting alot more things abt me when I was younger but I'm NOT gonna write it here for the sake of my FACE.
Anw. So I decided I really shd take on my bro's advice to try get closer to my parents over this hols. (Yea.. my brother advises me these sorta things.)
Ok it's dinner time now and I'm famished. My dad cooked lemak ayam cili padi!!! Yay!! (My bro was telling my mum it's his fav dish but my mum told him "Tak, ni Nurul nyer favourite." and my bro was like "Tak, Hafiz punyer." and my mum "Tak, Nurul punyer." And it went on like that for qt abit. When I said "Ni kita dua-dua nyer favourite" my mum said "Ah, ye lar.. Tapi yang masak, abahnyer jugak." Hahaa.. I love my mum.)
Eh dun forget, tmr's mothers day! My fam's going airport to eat. :D
Happy (advanced) Mother's Day to all the mothers reading this! (Ha.. What are the chances?!)
Ahh here is my no 1 love.
Adam, my 5 yr old tutee's brother.. This is the boy who's been kissing my hand and shoulder and hugging me everytime he's upset with his cousin. Cute kan... Katak calls him a threat. ;D
Nooranah, this drama mama of a pri 5 kid. She soo can talk! It was all I could do to make sure she gets her work done. Oh but she says some very funny things!
Another time! I shall eat and afterwards find more things to occupy my mind with.
Oh well. 200 years to go...
iFLEW @ 8:00:00 pm
Friday, May 12, 2006
Come away with me
my favourite man
This song played on the radio while we were on the cab after visiting Fadz at TTSH, Tues. Turned to him to say 'nice song!' but he was already asleep. It was approaching night and raining outside. And as the song played on, I just thought, "How lovely...."
:)
Gonna miss you beb. 400 years.. Haha..
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(Norah Jones)
Come away with me in the night
Come away with me
And I will write you a song
Come away with me on a bus
Come away where they can't tempt us
With their lies
I want to walk with you
On a cloudy day
In fields where the yellow grass grows knee-high
So won't you try to come
Come away with me and we'll kiss
On a mountaintop
Come away with me
And I'll never stop loving you
And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night
Come away with me
iFLEW @ 2:56:00 am
Friday, May 05, 2006
the 100th post
The past few days have been kind to me, despite a bad trip (not literal) I had on Sunday.. Yea.. That's the real reason why I can't go out much this hols.. Got into my parents bad books last Sun and had to spend the rest of this lifetime (and the next) sucking up.. Doing housework being at home all the schitz. YES.. I do do some housework ok.. Some. HAHAHA..Anw, I just started reading this book "Fearless Relationships: Simple Rules for Lifelong Contentment" and one of the rules that made an impression was
"Be kind no matter what."The author, Karen Casey, narrated an excerpt she got off another book in the 70's by John Powell. Every morning Powell and his friend would be walking down a New York City street and would stop to buy a newspaper from a street corner vendor. And every morning this vendor would be very rude towards his friend, still, all the same, the friend would treat the vendor very kindly and even tip him . Believing that the vendor probably deserved a rebuff instead, Powell asked his friend on why he was always being so kind. His friend answered,
"Why should I let him decide what kind of a day I am going to have?"There so many times when we are faced with unpleasant pple or circumstances that can really make our blood 'go upstairs' and more often than not, we'd get frustrated and react in a similarly unpleasant manner. And for the rest of the day or even some days afterwards we'd not be able to escape that horrid feeling from the encounter. This, Casey described, is like being "held hostage.. by other people's behaviour."
I know this feeling. In fact recently I was just recounting about how horrid I felt when I was confronted by a very unpleasant being who frustrated me so much I broke down. And for sometime afterwards I let that dictate how I was going to behave towards him (coldly) and naturally our (inevitable) interactions weren't as effective. Upon reflection, I realised that what I did really did not help matters. Even if a kind response isn't forthcoming, Casey added, the next best thing would be to walk away.
Walking away does not necessarily show defeat. In fact, in certain circumstances, it does reflect your strength, if nothing else, in self-control.
As Dalai Lama once said, "Your assignment in this life is to love one another. And if you can't love one another,
at least don't hurt one another." :)
Yup yup.. Here are some points that may help in keeping kindness in mind...
- Pause a moment before answering a question. And in that moment, remember kindness.
- Being kind does not mean agreeing with the other person.
- Being kind is using a soft voice, a smile, an acknowledgement, and not using hurtful words.
- Kindness can be practised until it becomes real.
- Acting as if we feel kind is just as good as feeling kind to begin with.
- Kindness isn't weakness.
So let us all strivvvvvvve to be kind k.. I know for some pple, it would take like some major effort *cough-katak-cough*, but insya Allah, we can do it! Remember, the point is to not let the other person decide what kinda day YOU are gonna have.. And to be kind no matter what.
As for that 'being' I mentioned, I'm trying to focus on his 'good' and forget the 'other other' stuffs. Oh yea! My mum also pesan-ed to me to always doa for Allah to lembutkan hati orang yang kita sedang berurusan dengan, semoga urusan kita dilancarkan.. (err.. My malay-to-english translations sucks, but it roughly means when dealing with another person, we pray that God will soften the heart of that person so that our dealings with him will be smoother.. Haha.. What did I say abt my translations..) I think just the simple act of making that doa will make us feel better already.. :) :)
Ok lar.. It's really past 3, and I have to wake up early tmr (later) because of my date with THE GIRLS (zahzah fifi mimi daisy happyily and baba (i cant end with an 'i'-sound for that!)) to take the Tree Top Trail at macritchie! Haa.. The things we do when we're bored.
And before I go, here are some snapshots of the Macho Man *trumpet blows* !! Haa.. Looking not so macho, unfortunately. Try to spot the pic in which he was holding the straw so daintily!
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Spot it? It's the 3rd pic from the left in the top strip.
Oh see the 3 pics in which he was looking at my phone abashed? Haa.. What he was watching is a vid of him LIP-SYNCHING to Seroja. Mawi AND Siti. Funny shits. Hahaa.. Sorry macho man. I have to save the world from their delusion abt you.. ;)
iFLEW @ 2:01:00 am
Monday, May 01, 2006
No Tomorrow
An upbeat number for allll the pple who're DONE with the annoying exams!! For those pple who haven't, TOO BAD. Haa Kidding lar.. Check out the lyrics below, it's funny! Look out for our fav drink, 'Red Bull'!!!
What ya waiting for, Click it!
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(Orson)
Let's go to a rave,
And behave like we're trippin'
Simply 'cause we're so in love.
Funny hats, shiny pants
All we need for some romance,
Go get dolled-up
And I'll pick you up.
There's no line for you and me
'Cause tonight we're V.I.P.
(I know somebody at the door).
I see that twinkle in your eye,
You shake that ass and I just die,
Let's check our coats and move out to the floor.
When I'm dancing with you
Tomorrow doesn't matter.
Turn that music up
'Till the windows start to shatter
'Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet.
And I can't even dance.
Just look at me, Silly Me,
I'm as happy as can be-
I got a girl who thinks I rock.
And tomorrow there's no school,
So lets go drink some more Red Bull,
And not get home 'till about 6:00.
When I'm dancing with you
Tomorrow doesn't matter.
Turn that music up
'Till the windows start to shatter
'Cause you're the only one who can get me on my feet.
And I can't even dance.
Everybody here is staring
At the outfit that you're wearing
I love it when they check you out.
Cover's only twenty bucks,
And even if the dj sucks
It's time to turn this mutha out!
When we're together
When we're together
There's no tomorrow,
There's no tomorrow
When we're together
There's no one in the world
but you and me oh
you and me oh
You and me
iFLEW @ 1:18:00 pm
Bora Bora
Atikk, you're right!
Gosh Bora Bora Island is gorgeous la..
Part of the Society Islands, French Polynesia, Bora Bora is largely acclaimed to be the world's most beautiful island.. I can believe that. It's surrounded by another world's most beautiful, lagoon.. Not alot of beaches here lar.. Apparently it has only a few narrow strips.. But you can go diving here.. And parasailing too!! Man.. I so wanna parasail...
This is the overwater bungalow and the glass panel that Atikk was talking abt.. I saw another photo which revealed the glass panel to be quite big.. Sungguh memuaskan (really satisfying).. The interiors of the bungalows are also gorge... Haa wanna know the price? The cheapest is arnd 498 EUR per night, which is equal to abt 1 065 SGD. That's for just a normal Lagoonview Villa, they call it. For an overwater one, it's going at a whooping 1040 EURO!! Fuhh.. That's 2225.60 SGD. PER NIGHT. (tt's like most pple's 1 mth's worth of pay) Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... Heheh....
Cute eh.. Hais.. My kid will grow up loving the sun and the beach.. Hahaa..
Oh yea. I'm sorry pple, don't think I can join you guys on your posh trips to the movies or ice skating or pasar malam anymore. I realised that in order to accommodate my lavish lifestyle in the future, I need to start saving up whatever I can now. Haa.. Responsible kan.. Independent too.. Hahaa.. Ok.. So if you all are going out, please don't expect me to tag along ok... I shall be scrooge from now on. ;)
Oh ya thanks Atikk for introducing me to the WORLD's MOST BEAUTIFUL ISLAND. Anybody else has any other recommendations?
iFLEW @ 11:47:00 am
Hi friends.. So my friend threatened to sever friendship if I wouldn't put a decent pic of himself. It was really hard to find.... I mean, Him? Decent? Finally found this. Hope it'll suffice.
my favourite man 
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