Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Kiss Me

And to all the people in love out there, including Hafie (I know you're in love with Oasis) and Md Noor (you, you're just in love with yourself, hahaa), and Atikk (if you're even reading this, because I know you love this song), here is a feel good number, one of my FAAAVourite favourite songs in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD, how 'dancingfireflies' came about..

Click it. :)

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(Sixpence None The Richer)

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

iFLEW @ 7:36:00 pm

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I like men in uniform. Esp hot serani ones...

Now let's hope there'll be an Encore. That would be nice.. ;)


I'm feeling pretty good the past few days.. Maybe even the past few weeks.. July's been a kind month, much kinder than June. But perhaps, it was the sourness of June that made the sweetness of July all the more sweeter. Hahaa.. I sound like Maly now, don't I, this round-the-bush talk. *shudders*.. But the point is, I like July so far. :)

Anw.. think only md noor got eye teasers ah.. I also got ah.. Look here...

Can you do it? hahahahhaaa...

Ok.. One of them is me (yes, this is not a trick qn) and the other is Hafiz Scoprire's cousin whom he claimed looked sebijik like me.. So he sent me that pic of her, and I went scouring for a pic of mine that resembles that the most.... so Hmm.. What yall think? Really ah..? Not same kan.. I think I look a lil more melayu than her.. Kan kan kan?

And btw, do you guys know how a melayu look is like..? Well, according to a certain reliable source.. A melayu look is more "gentle".. Hahaa.. yea.. Sooooo.... if yall happened to agree with me tadi.. That means.. yall agreed I look gentle!!! MUAAAAHAHAHAAAAAAAA...... (ok, tt was not a gentle laugh.)

Alright, I just wanna share this really nice quote with yall.. Got it from.. if I rmbr correctly, Zikral Rasul... By that nice-looking ustaz whom me and Shad were gushing over afterwards.. hahaa... Ok, he said...

"Live a life that if you're away for a while, people will miss you. And if you're away for good, people will pray to Allah to bless you."

Something to strive for, eh.. :)

iFLEW @ 6:43:00 pm

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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Let me sing you a waltz

I just caught Before Sunset on Monday, the one starring Ethan Hawke and Julie Delpy. Like I was telling Shad, I can get pretty obsessed with movies I like. And I liked this one. :)

There is 1 part in the movie where both of them were on a boat and Julie Delpy who plays Celine was sharing what break ups are to her..

"I will miss of the person the most mundane things. Like I'm obsessed with little things.

Maybe I'm crazy, but... When I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why... I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or... ants, crossing the road... the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk... Little things.

I think it's the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each other, that move me, and that I miss, and... will always miss.

You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details..."

Well it's true isn't it.. There are always somethings abt the person you were with that are just so unique to himself, that made him different, and memorable. And you can't just brush them away even after you had the ugliest breakup.

Another thing I'd like to share..

Hmm.. Just a day after my last break our sch had this workshop on relationships called "Love sthg".. It was a slap on the face, but that's not the point hahaa.. My class had Mr Menon conducting the workshop. He was the HOD of PE, this really tall old skinny man who's super scary when he's angry but lovable all other times, and he said this (or sthg to this effect):

"Relationships are like peanutbutter and jelly sandwiches. You have one slice with peanutbutter spread and the other with the jelly spread and you put
them together. Once you pry the 2 slices off each other, in whatever way,
even most carefully, you'll find.. there are bits of jelly on the peanutbutter side, and bits of peanutbutter on the jelly.

What I'm trying to say is that, at the end of every r/s, there's never a clean break. You'll definitely lose a bit of you to the other person, and you'll have with you bits of the other person."

Yep.. And somehow I feel that it's the little bits of ourselves that we lost to other people that eventually make us more of a person.

I've said this a million times, sorry, but yea.. I believe in cherishing the experience.. The memories.. I mean, of course it always aint that good, and you need to learn from past mistakes etc. What I think, is that we need to acknowledge, ok, the bad things, you know like the things that the person did that wasnt nice, or the way he treated you that you shouldn't tolerate, all these we acknowledge and use them as guides for err, the future.

You know, I feel, we all heal better if we don't feel so bitter.. Bitterness, like picking at his faults, pushing him the blame, all that, helps in getting you over that person, yes, but that isnt really a pleasant way is it.. What abt all those times that he made you feel happy.. What abt all the things that made you fall in love with him in the 1st place..

I don't think we can ever recover 'completely'. In the sense that we completely forget abt someone, or we completely lose all affections for him. I don't think that's the point even.

I think moving on is not abt forgetting. It's abt accepting.

I say we embrace the past. Look at all the special things he was and tell ourselves, 'I had him'. And I dunno... then we'll feel at peace.

(Anw, we do want err.. the pple of our past (haha!) to look back at the times with us and smile too right..? ;) )

But okaay haha that was just my 2 cents worth.. Everyone has their own way of dealing with things.. :) InsyaAllah, if you look to Him for comfort, He will comfort you.


ANWAAAAY, anw, anw......

This is abit of Before Sunset. It's Celine singing "A Waltz for a Night" for Jesse (Ethan Hawke).
If you have 3 min, do watch. :)

(like some vids, I suggest you press play and let the whole thg run and buffer finish 1st, then replay and you can watch uninterruptedly :D )




iFLEW @ 11:43:00 pm

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Monday, July 17, 2006

Reperio Photos photos PHOTOS!

The rawking Scorpion, I mean, Scorpio, I mean, Scop-rayer, ehhh SCOPRIRE. Sheesh. Susah betul. The mat-mat hensem: (From left) Hafiz Jap, Kamal Kental, Ibnur pika-pika. The minah-minah jambu: Nurain, Thaharah (3J), Surya, Lulu, Shamiah, Nurul coool, Adlina

Dk guys and girls! Great show!

Mas, Sharifah, Dayah, Sya, Yanti, Mash, Salmah Download, Fie, Nat * Zahdan, Idil, Hosni, Alfian, Azfarina * Nidzam, Rizal, Fairuz, Kamal, Faizal Rawi, Shan. (absent fr pic): Wan anak rebana.

Totally happening facis! Fairuz, Fadzrun, Faizal Rawi, Shan * Alfian, Kamal, Ana, Aida, Nadiah, Aidil * Nora, Shai and Mua!

O-o-oo-oh! Repe-eh-ri-O! Team Reperio Power!

Portraits~

Asyurah.. She and a grp of pple did a very nice rendition of "Menanti Sebuah Jawaban" at GF.

Lyna in red.

Zahdan sniffing Fairuz's hair..

A very elated Fezhah.

A very sulky Mateen.

And the best, the very best, a very tasty chicken.

iFLEW @ 10:52:00 am

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Boston



iFLEW @ 10:47:00 am

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Saturday, July 15, 2006

It's about the coffee you know.. not the cup.. :)

I like this.. A reminder to myself firstly and also the rest of us :)


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A group of alumni, highly established in their careers, got together to
visit their old university professor. Conversation soon turned into
complaints about stress in work and life.

Offering his guests coffee, the professor went to the kitchen and
returned with a large pot of coffee and an assortment of cups -
porcelain, plastic, glass, crystal, some plain looking, some
expensive, some exquisite - telling them to help themselves to hot
coffee.

When all the students had a cup of coffee in hand, the professor said:
"If you noticed, all the nice looking expensive cups were taken up,
leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. It is, but normal for you to
want only the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems
and stress.

What all of you really wanted was coffee, not the cup, but you
consciously went for the best cups and were eyeing each other's cups.
Now if life is coffee, then the jobs, money and position in society are
the cups. They are just tools to hold Life, but the quality of Life
doesn't change. Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to
enjoy the coffee in it."

So, don't let the cups drive you... enjoy the
coffee instead.


credits to I dunno who.. but thanks brother Ladak Yaseen Noorahmed who fwded it to the ms yahoogrp..

iFLEW @ 10:04:00 pm

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Kem Reperio, Power!

Kem Reperio, Gerek!
Ini kem kita, kem Repeee-rio..

Heh.. Yup.. Back from foc.. In one piece, some more.. Who would have thought I'd survived..

Ok, faci-ing wasnt that bad.. My grp rocks to the max, the best.. They are funny, selamber, merapek, spontaneous, sporting.. They aren't hyper-active, which is good, because as you all know, I'm a mellow kinda person.. (haha..) My partner pun, well, gerek kan.. Haha.. It was really interesting to see the way he layans the pple, like so natural.. and entertaining! I'm envious.. Anyhows I had a lot of fun.. Alot ALOT.. One of the best camps I've been to.. With the best company. :)

Once I get pix I'll put them up ok?

Good job Team Reperio! K2P! Advisors! And of course, the all-happening facis.. Hee hee.. we rawk.

Anw, I just did a 3h stint as teaching asst for a k2 class at masjid assyafaah. Hmm.. 30 plus 6-7 year olds running abt vying for attention, well, what can I say man, headache.. But I guess it was nice when the kids like go up to you and compete for your hand. "Teacher I wanna hold your hand!" "No I wanna hold your hand!" "Teacher I wanna hold your hand!!" Hahaa.. Means they like me right? *Phew.* It was good experience. Whether I'll do it again.... Hmm.. That'll depend.. ;)


Actually what I wanted to blog abt was my parents. Abt how they still could find so many excuses to smile at each other even after nearly 40 years of marriage. And they never got tired of looking out for the other. To me, that's amazing. Yes. In BOLD. Haha.. well you know me, ever the unromantic.

There was this one thing I witnessed that was, err.. powerful..
WC season, some 2am match.. My family was lounging together out in the living room- my mum, dad, bro lying on the floor in front of the telly and me, the Queen, on the sofa behind them, supposedly watching the match, but by that time my bro and mum had konked out.

At one point, my mum fidgeted in her sleep, and like a reflex action, my dad reached out for her hand and held it til she was sound asleep again.

Beautiful eh?

Hais..


Don't blame me. It must be the drizzle now. The perfect weather to daydream and think happy thoughts. Haha.. I think I'm happiest when the weather's like this. :)


Anw. Md Hensem's tanding's later! Don't give up, oh md noor dun give uP!! :D

iFLEW @ 1:47:00 pm

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

ballack triumphs over c.ronaldo. :)

Ok ok I admit.. Even though I tried my very best to watch the match, I think I effectively caught only 3 min outta the whole thing, i.e. when I'm awake and conscious. Seems like mr sandman was a lil more enticing than fav gayboy c.ronaldo and fav snag ballack. Sorry. But I'm glad Germany won. They dint disappoint me.

That victory was just desserts man.. Main dish was GOLD medal by fav friend and lendra la for their ganda putera / putera ganda event at Silat IVP yesterday. It was a superb win, one they totally deserved for the efforts that they put in.. And they looked really good doing what they did. Bravos.. BEB! NOTE MY TAG! SWENSENS TREAT ALRIGHT?? *dances* EHHHH... just to make it clear. YOU treat ME. Not the other way eh...

Oh for those pple who weren't there.. you missed out seeing mat hensem lar.. True to his name, he looked damn hem-sem yesterday strutting his stuffs. Haha.. Anw mamat, cheer up ok kiddo.. you all did good for your debutante perf sey.. And katak was saying that you guys really really put in alot of effort in it.. Like going for extra training sessions and all.. Ok ok, chins up! Go all the way for tanding yea, ALL THE WAY!! Gua caya sama lu!!!!! ice cream cone beb ICE CREAM CONE!!!!

Wah I must say that yesterday was fun.. Especially towards the end of the day when everybody was just in such high HIGH spirits, the whole place was just cheering like crazy lar for that last tanding event. It was crazy I tell you CRAZY!!! Esp Ahmad sumantri lar he was like coming up with all these laungans and fitting Hoirul's name inside. Thank God for fadz who kindly explained to me what's going on, man, looking at the referees and their hand actions it's a wonder pple can understand anything! They look like some random funny movements! Hahaa.. (anw, Hoirul got through to the next round. Congrats!)

In the midst of all the excitement zahdan asked me if I feel motivated to join silat already.. Haa.. I think not. It's good and fun and challenging, but I don't want anymore pple to LAUGH AT MY KICKS *GLARES at katak*. Fadz was saying that I should just join, for the exercise. THANKS my friend, I GET THE HINT.

Fadz added that the silat pple are all very nice, and no politics. Haa! Ok I could see that.. At least from my few encounters with them (yest and monday) they were all friendly and.. hahaa welcoming. And semangat giler!!!!! *joins in the giler-ness*

I missed today's matches but I look fwd to the next ones!!!! Hope I can go! Kamie, you with me?


Anw, yesterday alot of pple came up to me and commented that my face like cramp. Hahaa.. It's nothing lar, I'm ok! Ok, maybe alil nervous for beb's event (hahaa padahal not like it's ME who's performing). But my muker memang cam gitu lar, my madrasah frens last time called me 'Muker stress', tanya Muk. "Eh, muker stress, mari sini." "Hello, boleh cakap ngan muker stress?" Hahahaa... Yea.. Ntah eh kenaper..

I think my face only got 2 basic expressions - crazy and sad/stressed, either or. Really!! Hahaa.. Ok you all know my crazy face. Buden apparently everytime I dont smile I look sad/stressed. My sec 4 teacher actually called me for a one-on-one session with her to ask if there's anything bothering cos she hardly see me smile. (Heehee, eventually I took adv of the situation and got away with not taking A maths re-test at the same time as everybody else.. Bet even Maly and Shad dint know that! Whooops..)

Ok as I was saying.... Yea if you see my face abit cramp, don't sweat on it k, I'm most prob ok.. Ye lar.. takkan nak senyum 24-7 kan.. Mesti ada break sikit.. But..... if you're not sure, hahaa.. yea.. go ahead and ask! If I really am not, I guess that lil show of concern would be very much appreciated... :)

I think Fairuz is right, it's prob just cos I've got "sad eyes"... But I'm not sad ok? Hahaa I think I haven't been happier in a long looong time. *grins*


Oh I haven't packed! FOC tmr!!!!! hahahahhahahaa *nervous but excited* 4 days of beb. Shit. I wanna chg partners.

;P Kidding.

iFLEW @ 10:12:00 pm

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

It's Pamper- Katak Week this week!

Yes yes, my fellow compatriots.. Join me as we treat our dear friend with much love, care and sympathy in conjunction with his birthday... After all.. The older one gets, the more TLC one needs. Our time will come too.. Karma, you know.. You give some, you get some..


Yesterday was mighty mighty fun. For me lar.. haha.. Seeing macho man near-to-naked, what more can I ask for.. (sunglasses. heheh..)

I'm kidding, really.. No I DINT get to see much of him, physically, of course. Allah still protects me, Alhamdulillah.. But I did send him to spa! He looked sooooo cute when he learnt they'd be touching his butt during the massage, his face turned all red sak! After we put him into the room, the lady in charge turned to me and laughed "he's so shy!" hahahahahhahahaa.... Sheesh.. Malu konon... But good good. I also duwan them to. (EH. Everybody's gotta be selfish sometimes perrr..)

Hope you enjoyed the experience beb... :)

Anw.. So the last post I said sthg abt practising what I ought to practise for the sake of pple pple right.. Hahaa. yea.. I did lar.. I tried to bake a cake. Hahaa.. 1st time man, tapi ambitious! I was trying to do some mocha mousse sthg sthg. Tak menjadi!!! The cake was fine, tho tak raser the coffee LANGSUNG. The cream was NICE but should have put more, like make 3 layers of cake rather than 2. The mousse turned out SO fluid, we treated it as choc sauce instead.. just poured it over the cake.. Haaa... Creative kan....

Lucky my sis was there to help me.. if not there would be MUCH more bloopers lar.. Anw, it was qt fun baking with her.. we kept laughing and laughing.. sister-bonding man... :D

My dad said it looked nice!!!!!! But well, everybody took a slice and dint take anymore.. Still got berlambak in my fridge. Hehee..

Ok.. So the trial cake dint turn out as well as I hoped.. which forced me to go for the tried-and-tested, BROWNIES!!

Hahaa I think the brownies turned out OK.. I made the chocolate topping myself!! Generous generous slaps of chocolate topping such that when you take a bite, you'll have choc stain on your teeth. A lil sprinkle of cocoa powder on the top and Va-Lah! Although there was abit of an embarrassing moment there when katak couldn't cut the brownies cos it was too hard for the plastic knife. I tried to stand where the silat peeps would be blocked from the view to save my face!

Speaking of which, my thanks to the silat pple for accommodating me that morning..esp MD NOOR and FAIZOLA, aka mat HENSEM and mat HOT, for making it all even possible lar.. Gua caya samer lu, bebs... Gi menang itu gold sana...


On a different note, all these have pretty been a new and exciting experience for me.. There are certainly times when I get lost as to what I'm to do (or NOT, for that matter).. It does bring some low personal moments, I guess.. But.. I do notice a change in myself. No, not getting sicker or hornier eh. I'm more sure of what I want and willing to work for it. Yup..


Ok. Time to mandi and head for mock camp.. I'm faci-ing at foc ler.. Can you imagine that? Good luck to the pax. And me. More luck to me, please.



Savouring the experience, wouldn't give it up for the world.. :)

iFLEW @ 7:33:00 am

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Monday, July 03, 2006

You're just too good to be true...



iFLEW @ 1:37:00 am

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOFTOPS OF YOUR HEAD

I read md noor's post and well, he had just put in fine fine words the thoughts I have had in my head for a while now..

Sometimes we might get angry at somebody because of sthg he's done, and get even angrier when he does nothing to er.. for lack of a better word, make up or apologise.. Maybe we just don't realise that that person may not know in the 1st place what he's done or the true situation. Imagine, you don't know anything, suddenly jer you find yourself in some hot soup. Naturally, if someone's suddenly angry or upset with you and you don't know the real reason why, you would get upset too, even irritated.

The best way is to tell them lar, what they did. If you tell them on the spot there might even be enough time for them to salvage the situation. If you're too angry, ok, tell them later.

Ok this is sthg I learnt from social work (my fav module, the one I got a friggin B- for).. Lemme share with yall, insyaAllah, we may all benefit from this..

1. You describe to them what they did (DESCRIBE, not give judgements
ehh...), and when.. Don't say, "you ALWAYS never do this, you ALWAYS like this like this.." How you know "always"? You're God ah? Instead say, "That day, when you bla bla.." It's much clearer.. :)

2. Then you tell them what you felt about it.. "I felt it wasn't nice of you bla bla.."

3. Then pause and prompt/ask them for their side of the story.. GIVE THEM A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN... Golden rule no. 1, that one.. Yup..

4. Try to work sthg out together.. Negotiate.. InsyaAllah, you'll come to a win-win situation, or at least, one where both parties are no longer fuming... If the thing is of the past, do share what you feel they could do THE NEXT TIME. We all need some guidance once in a while.. :)


5. Forgive.

6. Do all these and if you find you're able to do them kindly despite you
being angry and everything, then my God, you're truly one of the ENLIGHTENED ones.. :D

Ok hahaa.. I am one of those people who sometimes ('sometimes' ajer ehhh... haha..) do things all wrong, yet not realise them. So pray, tell me and not hold it against me k? Speak frankly, of course, and if you're nice while you're at it, it's a bonus. :)

I am, of all things, a willing learner. Strike me and I will strike back. Hold me and I will soften. Teach me and I will learn, insya Allah. Please do forgive me and pray for me too..

Keep in mind please that nobody wants to elicit anger from another person.. (except when he's really up to some mischiefs.. In that case, go ahead, you can lasiiinggg that person..) Nobody intentionally makes mistakes.. So don't treat that person like he's some bugger lar... Have some heart :) :)

(hahaa.. If only my dad reads this.. )


Another thing tt's been constantly in my mind was sthg that Maly pulak wrote awhile ago which echoed the reason tabloids gave to sienna miller's rocky r/s with jude law:

For someone who's so HAWT and HANDSOME, jude law seemed to be getting praises and gushes from women all over, except his gf. She reportedly was always putting him down instead. Hahaa.. IF this report is accurate, my take is that, I'm SURE she KNOWS and FEELS that jude law is ALMOST PERFECT, maybe it's just that HE doesn't know she feels that way... ;)

Don't we just love to hear pple, esp those who mean alot to us, to say nice things to us..?
We love and we LOOK FWD to that.. It makes us feel pleased, appreciated, and I think very much, reassured of our position.

I do think the reason why some r/s turn sour through time is tt pple take their partner, or rather, the r/s itself, for granted. They assume that their partner knows how much he/she means to them, so they don't see the need to explicitly express to them. Well well.. Every1 needs some reassurance once in a while.. You know.. to be told, then reminded, and then reminded again..

I once said to Shad, I think this is the very reason I'm happy now. :)


Really people, some nice words will go a loooong, LOOOOOONGGGGGG way...


Alrighty! Gotta help my dad with the cooking now heheh... After that, I really have to start practising what I ought to be practising for my, and hmm about 30 other pple's, sake. You'll know what I'm talking abt soon enough... *grins*


Adios Salamos! :) :)

iFLEW @ 11:39:00 am

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