Monday, October 31, 2005
Lets go simpanging-siuring again
I CHOSE to have an utmost slack weekend. Which started on Thurs for me. Despite the fact that I have tonnes and tonnes of work to do.
Haa, probably that is precisely the reason for the slack-
because I have tonnes of work to do. Does that make sense? I think it would after you read it the 4th time.
GAH!! I wanna be married and pampered, now.
Ok, anw. Watched 3 vcds- Finding Neverland, Catch Me if You Can, Identity- great stfs, I cried my eyes out on the 1st 2 that they got so swollen I had to wear specs since then (need to save my eyes for raya man). The last, what can I say,
John Cusack rocks my world. It's abt these 10 pple trapped at a motel in a storm and like pple started dying one by one. After the 5th death they realised that all of them shared the same birthday, and have states for their last name (s.a. Dakota, Nevada). And well, that the killer is really just one of them. It's a great movie la. I recommend ALL THREE to u guys. Watch them if not soon, then IMMEDIATELY after exams yea... ANDDDDD.. I watched like 3 others on Star Movies/ HBO. ANDDDD.. some documentaries. And those Malay drama series.
And for the rest of the time, I stoned.
SOO.. consequentially, I forsee this coming week to be HELL WEEK. Please help by sending encouraging smses and
smile when you see me. Your kindness would be very much appreciated. Thank you.
I'm still in the middle of cleaning up my room. If I can actually claim credits for that. All the work done so far was by the
parents. I did not contribute a single sweat, haha! And it's MY room!! Well I did say I wanna be married and
pampered. Oh wait, I did like,
scan the junk before the parents incinerate them. Hard work, ok?!!
Look what I found...
My 16th bithday present from Eminence. They cheated my feelings by putting the vcd sleeve for 10 Things I Hate About You (which I loved) at the front. After I so excitedly opened it, to my dismay, only Asilah's handwriting can be found. If you can't read the words ( I don't blame you, it's really just her handwriting. ) they are basically stfs that the Eminence pple link with me. Some of them are utter nonsense, of course. Like the one that mentions my "gilerness". I mean, me and "giler" would be like John Cusack and "ugly". See the non-connection?
Also for my 16th, this card was given to me by eminem. Woohoo... And only ONE person in this world know who that is. *scandal scandal* ;p
The only time I could ogle at good looking guys, I was held back by a sense of loyalty and faith. And guilt. But Sha looked good too. :) A little like a hamster, but good. haha! It was worth all the sneaking me and the cousins, isk and afiah, did to catch it. And my, was it ALOT of sneaking.
Cover of booklet of readings for Women, one of the themes covered in gp class j2. (Under Florence Yap, mine and yanlam's fav subject of critique.) Love the colouring? I did it myself! (The point of this photo's display here, what else.)
Ohkay.. Lots more where these came from. But most are FOR MY EYES ONLY. Haha.. Cleaning up can be quite fun afterall, rediscovering your treasures (khazanah, as my woodlands libr gang would've called it). Some things can never be forgotten, but some, hmm, just need a lil reminding. :)
Oh yar. Had to forgo the whole painting idea cos not enough time til raya. Hols then. And the dark purple walls too! I was brainwashed by my cousin who convinced me it'll depress me to no end, that purple. *sulks*
Remember to watch the 3 movies!!!
current state of room: curtained! nicely raya-curtained. (lets ignore the other parts of the room now)
iFLEW @ 4:40:00 am
Sunday, October 30, 2005
All I want is a warm bed and a kind word and unlimited power.
- Ashleigh Brilliant
current state of room:
tolerable.
iFLEW @ 4:19:00 am
Monday, October 24, 2005
Operation Room Clean-up, BEGINS.
current state of subject: tongkang pecah (broken vessel).
iFLEW @ 1:49:00 am
Thursday, October 20, 2005
I have a problem.
I stare at girls.Well, ok, gaze, more like. I can't seem to make myself turn away. Today it was this girl I recognised from 3 mths in aj. The 1st time I noticed her she was in a fairy get-up, promoting the play 'a midsummer's night dream' in aj canteen. I've always tot she looked pretty, and I look fwd to seeing her around in school, but today on 96, I got the chance to 'look'. Short curly hair- one of a kind, geek specs, dimple on the left cheek, clear skin, sweet smile. If I was a guy, that would be the defining moment.*slaps forehead*back to genes essay.ps: fh, at times like this i wish u're here for me to gush with. msn just isn't cut out for this kinda stfs.
iFLEW @ 9:06:00 pm
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Of badminton, bridge, and tiny viking ships
Cant remember what brought up the subject but me and jon were talking abt old times (read: GOOD old times) just now over msn and later sms.
J1
1st there was wong wai sam/san (i dun rmbr), our ghost of a gp tchr with transparent skin, long (soft) rebonded hair parted perfectly in the middle, no eyebrows (yes, none. and on days when she forgot to draw them with those brown eyebrow pencil thgs, it got quite ugly. literally.), and a super-i-wanna-die-bad lameness. She refused to believe that there are white cows with black spots around; she insisted we had been deceived by the media, especially Fernleaf ads.
Then there was our class' obsession with badminton and captain's ball. it was either one or the other, i tell ya. We (fuhan pris and i) tried to suggest basketball but most of the time we'd get outcasted. I only started learning to play badminton properly in j2 tho. but i had great coaches. and i got pretty good at it in the end, u know. i mean, not to brag or anything.. but u can ask zirui (our PE rep and ALSO nj track and field captain)! at one point the rally between us was really quite smooth *beams*.
But the good part about that was how after PE we'd like hang arnd in the canteen, playing bridge.. having drinks.. or just talking. 5pm PE was nice.
Another obsession was with truth and dare. (I dunno what's up with the people i hang out with and truth or dare, it just never leaves me. all the way from pri sch man..) WE played that like so many times, almost on our outing tt we had together.. until i thk despite permutations and combinations we'd exhausted all the qns we cud possibly want answers to on ALL of us. haha.. there was also tt somebody who thought that tt jon was the most kissable guy in class *nudge nudge*. HAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHAHAAA.... (God forgive me for that momentary excessive cheekiness. it WAS hilarious.).
Oh and Bridge! lots and lotsa bridge! at the class condo XY taught me other card games like 99 and black jack but i admit these games were never in my niche. I'm too nice and honest a person to think in such cunning, insidious ways. I prefer heart attack. good family fun. ANW. talking abt NON- good family fun, i heard this riddle on power 98. what do sex and bridge have in common? (I'm NOT gonna ans this here.)
I'm probably alone in this, but i loved Funtasia.. That WAS the name right? the nj carnival some time in july. Well, coz while preparing for it i got to know the classmates abit better. It was so much fun, the preps! the girls were busy doing the artwork- 03S21 banner (very nice, courtesy of Miss Fuhan), the painted pebbles, and the board with the holes. The guys were busy throwing balls into the holes (ANY connotation is PURELY incidental, i swear). Remember the Pink Red and White camo bear? God that was ugly. (clarification: not done by the girls.)
Hmm the day itself was fun too! The eminence pple came down, even nurie! Hatta too, and rushdy, my pri school mates. Even Aizat and ahmad, haha.. my woodlands libr gang. I got to promote our prata stall to aizat, and he agreed the prata was delish. haha.. i'm proud of that prata stall. there was also liu yun (ly), this guy from the class in 1st 3 mths. We were splitting hairs trying to figure out how to make balloon sculptures. I managed to figure the flower out! really pretty. there were swords too! and funny (and unpopular) hats. haha! a bunch of us, me jon bren, probably fh and kamal, even spent the last 15min of the carn on that uncle ringo's miniature viking thingy! haha... despite me losing like a whole booklet of coupons, $50 bucks worth, before the event and having to pay for it out of my own (miserable) pocket, Funtasia was super super great. probably my best NJ exp! ok no lar. (just for the record, i found the intact booklet a few months later in my shelves. tsk.)
Ok now tt i am on a roll, its hard to stop! but the entry's getting too long. ok the list above is non-exhaustive. there're still stuffs abt class condo, PPC drama (Gosh!) and the holy trinity that was me and 2 other asses. haha! and all these in j1! Will con't another day!
Ps: This entry is dedicated to eemin, the Sentimental One. and Jon. the most 'kissable' guy in class. (hah!)
Pps: It just struck me how it's so easy to forget abt good times when sthg bad happens. U'd be too busy looking for more bad stuffs and memories to grieve about. I dint quite notice my j1 year was this good til now. Cheers!
iFLEW @ 11:45:00 pm
Sunday, October 16, 2005
ATTN: any nice soul out there
Get me this. Please?
In the meantime, get for urself this.
oh social work... oh.. *heartpain*
iFLEW @ 11:06:00 pm
Friday, October 14, 2005
Like you'll never let me go
Oh btw, I just spent the better part of my night watching Armageddon. Gosh. i can't believe I hadn't watched it any sooner. I practically balled my eyes out and now face the risk of not being able to wear fake eyes tmr because of swollen tear glands. Den I wont be able to look halfway decent to face my dream husband. Gah.
But the movie was good and well, it took me by surprise how attached, emotionally, i got to it as the story went on. I mean, it WAS released beribu years ago, and with all the hype and everything, I still pretty much thought it was nothing more than an action flick. Not my cuppa, you know. I ended up watching it in the 1st place pun cos hmm.. it would certainly beat doing my singapore soc essay haha.. but NOW... I think I'd watch the movie a million times over. It was fab! Damn I love Star Movies.
And not to forget Liv Tyler. Is there a more perfect woman out there?
(Ok besides Nasha Aziz.) I just love her! And possibly every single scene she is in! This is SO not helping me get outta m
y Les mode.
Ok gotta run. Even Wonder Woman needs her minimum 3 hours of sleep. Oh. it's 4 am? Good luck to me.
iFLEW @ 4:21:00 am
Coming soon to theatres near you
Read this book. Before the movie comes out. Then watch it with me.
"What were the words that she would scream?"
" I don't know. I never know what they meant. I can still hear her." He
screamed a Yiddish word into the street.
"Why did you not ask her what the words meant?"
" I was afraid. I know I wasn't supposed to ask, so I didn't."
" Perhaps she desired for you to ask."
"No."
"Perhaps she needed you to ask, because if you didn't ask, she
could not tell you."
"No."
"Perhaps she was shouting, Ask me! Ask me what I'm shouting!"
iFLEW @ 2:39:00 am
Sunday, October 09, 2005
If u're HAFIE and u know it clap your hands
hafie_oasis says:
kau nyer kembar abandon kau kan
hafie_oasis says:
aku jugak bagus
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
yelar.. kau LOVER aper
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
must show more commitment
hafie_oasis says:
ehhhh
hafie_oasis says:
i stay up w u until ONE plus
hafie_oasis says:
not enuff commitment ker?
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
prove it man...
hafie_oasis says:
HOW?
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
we have 3 more years to go
hafie_oasis says:
sheeesh
hafie_oasis says:
hello?
hafie_oasis says:
long dist for 2 yrs plus
hafie_oasis says:
n i'm STILL here
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
aku tak perasan!!!
hafie_oasis says:
sheeeeeeesh
hafie_oasis says:
look WHO'S not commited!
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
oh man, we;ve been so close, i dint even know we were apart
hafie_oasis says:
must be cos of today's technology
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
oh... it's not technology, it's our love
hafie_oasis says:
love like a bomb
morninggory>> you'll rescue me right? says:
u just have to spoil the romantic thg rightBtw Hatta, u got me wrong.. It's not so much of the tapered pants itself, but more of the PEOPLE in the tapered pants. for eg. the person who sang this song (aint no sunshine) at SI *swoons*. and that below.
will be in bliss for the next few weeks.
Catch me when i fall.
iFLEW @ 2:26:00 am
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Because I'm bored
I shall do the thgy i found on ain's blog. (i'm not HOT eh, ain... ohh.. jaga kau...*muka offended* haha... ;P) (this is gonna be looong. Look at your room's clock. If it shows 3am, GO TO SLEEP. NOW.)
20 people
- hafie
- shad
- ain
- baba
- maly
- shafa
- asie
- nurie
- fuhan
- bren
- jon
- sha
- abg fiz
- kak huda
- isk
- kamie
- mukmin
- rahman
- pink
- eemin
-How did u meet 19?:
Pink.. Haaaa.. at a singapore-malaysia youth camp in July. and to thk we're like super frens now. All because of ubin nights and the scene in A Beautiful Mind whr russell crowe's character asked the (hot) girl to pick a shape, after which he traced out the shape ala connect-the-dots style using the stars in the sky ah. (ok i'm not describing it properly, but it was super romantic i tell u)
-What would you do if you never met 5?:
I'd probably have at least liked the '2 am' song by Trademark. (hahahahhahaa...) butttt tt's not answering the qn. If i never met somebody, how would i know what i would do if i never met her? i would have just, not known.
-What do you honestly think of 10?:
brendon is... Cute. and funny and sweet and assholic. Did i mention cute?
-Have you ever liked no.3?:
Despite wat u said abt me not being hot ain, i have liked u and i like u still.
-If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would like to do?:
Hafie, I'd write a tear-stained letter to oasis and if they dun mourn (by composing a new song, cancelling a concert, stop drinking) i'd swear off them.
-Would 2 and 11 make a good couple?:
erm. Jon's not OLD enough for shad. haha..
-Do you think 12 is hot?:
sha? Hell yea.
-Is 17 attached?
yes *wails*
-Tell me something about 11:
Jon's a musician. he plays guitar and downs booze. ok, a snag (and i mean tt in a +ve way ok.. dun give me tt look.) He's scary sometimes. i get scolded for calling him asshole (by eemin and punitha!!) so i tried to make it snd better by emphasising he's my darling asshole. haha. but he is. was. wdv doesnt matter.
-Do you know any of 3's family members?: ain has an adik lelaki 4 yrs younger (thx, ain's blog!) and a kakak. and parents. and like grandparents who live next door or sthg. oh! oh! and this very cute cousin? anak sedara? the eurasianish boy who was watching spongebob squarepants during hari raya.
-On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14?:
10! as of ALL other nurulhuda's of the world! :D
-What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you:
i'd die, baba, pls. don't.
-What language does 19 speak?:
Pink speaks english, mandarin, various chinese dialects (gosh i dunno!) and malay ("saya mahu berak".. all the things they learn.. *shakes head*)
-Who is 8 going out with?:
Not with some girl, i hope, Nurie. I dun care if u're in a girls' college.
-Would 18 and 5 make a good couple?:
OHMYGOD! Maly and Rahman! TOTALLY! Their idea of a romantic time'd be both of them outLAMEing each other. MOVE AWAY maly's and rahman's partners, i'm warning you.
-When was the last time you talked to 6?:
shafa, who's like beribu million miles away, in the land of the naked chef, prince harry and supernova heights. 28th sept! i checked my msn log! lama giler tu... rindu....
-What is 18's favorite band?
ntah. probably Rahman himself doesn't know. probably the "swing swing" guys. He's super bad at names.
-Does 4 have any siblings?:
positive. Baba has like 2? 3? kakaks and an abang.
-Would you ever date 1?:
hafie?? we ARE dating!! hello???!!
-Would you ever date 7?
Yes. (dun worry fie, tt shall remain strictly a fantasy. Asie, start worrying.)
-Is 15 single?:
Yes isk is. But approach at your own peril.
-what is 19s last name?:
Soh (hong ping) :)
-What is 3's middle name?:
ain-loner guy-rashid
-What is 10's fantasy?:
not me.
-Would 14 and 19 make a good couple?:
(these matchmaking qns are tiring) eh. wait.. kak huda and pink?? NOOOOO... even if they really do, NOOOOOOO!!!!!!! i object!!!!!!!!!! (coincidentally, both are my smyc mates)
-What school does 16 go to?:
kamie goes to NUS, unfortunately.
-What school does 19 go to?:
pink to sp
-Where does 9 live?:
Fuhan has a nice hse in Boon lay with a nice topfloor room with a spiderweb on the ceiling. Now in temasek hall.
-tell me something about 13?
Abg Fiz is my abang hafiz. heh. he's nice. but irritating.
-Are 5 and 6 best friends? :
shafa and maly are eminence-mates. (somehow being in a clique makes u pause abt naming one person as the best friend, don't you thk..?)
-Is 20 older than you?:
One of the FEW pple in my batch who are! Yup eemin's like a few days older.
-what do you think of number 16?
(kamie) That she's skinny and HENCE shd eat more lobak it's good for her. ;)
-is 9 your ex?
Fuhan's an EX-classmate.
-one word to describe 6?
shafa is gorgeous.
- how is 2?
no 2 (shad) is over no 2 (haha) and is now very bored so she's kacauing my perfect r/s with Lover (aper ni, 'serupa serupa ni? aku jeles tau!). nasib baik kau kembar aku shad. Haha.. Shad's sad and because of that she may appear scary but she's not!! she's super nice and gentle and funny and kental. why's she sad? Pasal aku sad! kan kita kembars sehati sejiwa.. hahahahahahhaa.. i love her to bits.
-what kind of couple would 5 and 14 be?
non-existent?! maly cannot be with kak huda and her ehem she HAS to be with rahman (dun kill me maly's ehem).
-does 9 make you horny?
Fuhan? no. but we always get horny together staring at lynnette during gp class. yum. (kidding!)
(gosh look at the time)
iFLEW @ 3:52:00 am
Sunday, October 02, 2005
Go easy on the lips!
An artist's impression of me.. Haa..My artist wont talk to me.Which is good, kinda,I wouldn't know what to say.
iFLEW @ 7:56:00 am
I'll tell you..
Ask me how am I,
I'd say i'm fine.
Ask me don't my eyes look alil sad,
I'd tell you i'm alil tired, my head's alil in pain,
that i've got assignments and projects and tasks enough to pile up to the moon and back but i'm too lazy to get any started,
that the test just now was heartbreaking because i cant for the life of me remember just what hershey and chase did in 1954 and whether 1 diploid cell gives rise to 4 haploid ones at the end of meiosis and if the child of sickle cell carrier parents with that nonsense mutation would survive or die even before birth,
that i went shopping alone on wed and how liberating it felt to have the power to spend and freedom to go look and gush about something pretty without having anyone telling me over my shoulders "err.. maybe u'd wanna reconsider", but how sad too coz i i was too shy to enter some shops companion-less despite the clothes calling out to me 'come, COME,' nobody to eat ice cream with too,
that no sponsorship and venue for PPC worries me like hell and squats like an elephant in camo get-up at my frontal lobe, there yet clumsily ignored,
that the fact that STILL NO GUY ASKS FOR MY NUMBER AFTER 2 FRIGGIN MTHS is not doing too good on my morales and power-hungry-hormones-infested facial cells,
that i wear black not because of it's the dominant colour in my wardrobe (it is) but because i was proving a point,
that i AM sad.
Ask me if my mum's ok,
I'd say she's good.
Ask me how's my dad's lemak ayam cili padi,
I'd tell you Terrific! but i miss my mum's cooking's, her ayam masak kicap and custard cakes, her agar-agar with cocktail and longan topping, her sotong hitam, just the right blackness and sweetness and pedasness,
that i feel bad everytime she complains to my aunts that it makes no diff if i'm home (which is rare enough) anw cos my door would be locked and she'd still have to call me (yes, on my hp, yes, still in the same hse) to have a word, but i'd still do exactly the same thgs because it's easier to me, to escape rather than to stay,
that sometimes when i do stay, i'd thk to myself, it's not so bad afterall, while we'd watch tv and laugh and talk abt marriage and gossip abt which actresses are 'Andartu's and me wanting to marry early and abt my husband being rich, funny, baik hati and alim, and how happy she seems to have me to share the dreams she had for the night or the conversations she had earlier in the day with,
but that sometimes i'd regret and wish i'm elsewhere, my ears too tired,
that i shamelessly shrew away from responsibilities like the dishes and ironing just because i'm lazy and i take for granted tt my parents can do them,
that it's true what she says i'd never noticed how old my dad is exactly because he still seems so young and so strong and so able until one day while he was sleeping i noticed the thin and translucent of his skin, stretched linearly over his proud firm hands,
that despite of all those it's true too that i only go to him for permission and to get money,
that i wont want to marry a guy like him coz he's too much like me and i hate him for it,
that i want my parents to play with ALL my children and watch them grow up and make them proud, like her children, that my greatest fear is my mum leaving,
that i'm too proud to tell her i love her
and i miss HER lemak ayam cili padi.
Ask me if my room's as messy,
I'd say it's like that.
Ask me to throw away those junks, i don't need them,
I'd tell you i do, i'm a collector,
that that bottle was a treat from my pri sch crush,
that that paper fan was given to me by another,
that cd was a birthday present,
that soap bar still gives my shelves that nice lychee smell, albeit a lil plasticky,
that deodorant spray was an accidental gift but the only thg i have left to remind me of some good times,
that bunch of flowers were the ones i made to bring for Eminence on chinese new year 2001 which was incidentally friendship day, slept late and woke up late and so much for the effort, didn't go school afterall,
that stack of papers are my drafts of letters to various people on various stfs, love life boredom,
that the textbooks and files may just come in useful some time you know, who cares if they talk o levels,
that those stars i meant to put on my ceiling, just not yet,
that i get a kick reading my old diaries whenever i find them on the floor in the shelves under the bed,
how stupid and inflated and lovelorn i was,
still am,
that i thrive on these, u see, i collect
memories.
Ask me what am i doing,
I'd say nothing.
Ask me if it's you,
I'll tell you....
iFLEW @ 12:17:00 am
Oh btw, I just spent the better part of my night watching Armageddon. Gosh. i can't believe I hadn't watched it any sooner. I practically balled my eyes out and now face the risk of not being able to wear fake eyes tmr because of swollen tear glands. Den I wont be able to look halfway decent to face my dream husband. Gah.
y Les mode.
