Friday, January 13, 2006
I KNEW IT.
She IS younger than me ler... And I guessed her from the start. Heh, I'm good...
Talking about my brother's wife-in-mind.
One year only tho. Now she's studying Syari'ah in Malaysia.. will be graduating in 2 years. Honestly speaking, she's matured beyond her years, I personally hafta testify to that. And she's nice, takes care of her adab, pretty! And very good with kids (I assume.. She does have like 7 other adiks under her or sthg.)
Imagine at this age, discussing about future plans, budget, timeline for engagement then wedding then life after marriage. At this age. I don't thk I can do that, I won't be wise enough. Not now.
But the talk with my bro really sedarkan me on a few things that I would have known but often overlook. For one thing, it's my peradaban. I guess I'm too old to blame it on secular upbringing. I need to know where the limits lie and keep safe before those lines. Consciously.
Another thing is probably about the relationship itself. That it should be ultimately because of Him and not
him. I think it would be lovely, and essential, to have someone whom i can explore and further strengthen my faith with. None of us are perfect, and there is always so much more to learn. As long as we don't give up on ourselves, insyaAllah He wont give up on us.
Last but probably the one tt struck me the most, was my bro's lil story. In an email he mentioned that he doesn't think he's good enough for her (She is reeeeally good, I tell you.). And she replied, only Allah is in the position to judge whether he is.
SO keep that in mind, people! Whenever you feel a lil low, that you're not as setanding, or seglamer, or sekacak semanis sebaik sealim the other person, believe in this:
Wallahu'alam. :)
Yay! I'm so glad my bro's back. At like 4 plus yest morning sey, touched down 3.45am. Who cares. He brought back lotsa food! I love food. *dances*
Anywaaaaaay...I had a great time just now. A crazy, sakit jiwa and jantung, memory-worthy time. Hm, what will be will be, yea.. Only He knows what's best for us all.
:)
iFLEW @ 2:21:00 am
to the now
