Sunday, January 08, 2006
just another rainy sunday afternoon
I was reading Kamie's blog and I was really drawn to a couple of paragraphs she had. With(out) her permission, lemme extract some stfs:
i had a conversation with my sister and she told me, it's inevitable that you eventually attract someone you hadn't intended to attract because you
are most at ease with that person. he or she sees you in your whole complete
raw vulnerable open state. you're yourself, and not putting up a front trying
desperately to impress them in order to attract them. he or she may appreciate
your sincerity and honesty with them and grow to like the enduring qualities
they get to see in the real you. it is a positive thing really, because he/she
won't have any shocking "surprises" when they have decided to take things to
another level with you [if they do.]. hahahaha. so. moral of story (no. 2): be yourself. insya Allah, the guy/girl you've been admiring will notice just how
special you are. (: [amin. HAHAHA.]
while we're still on the topic of admiration, let's say you're being yourself, doing your own thang like you always do, and should. somehow the idiotic guy or girl you've been admiring doesn't seem to show any interest in you or notice how amazing an individual you are [i firmly believe everyone is. hey, we've got our own blend of strengths and weaknesses, combination of negative and positive traits or qualities haven't we?]. or maybe he/she secretly does but wont ever tell you? *gasps* so you wonder, "why? you moron. i'm not invisible k. Buter nak mampus blahblahblah.. Go get your eyes checked!!!! -BISH- [kicks a table to vent out frustration]" [rotfl.] BUT. think you can take comfort in the fact that at least you have been blessed with a friend or an acquaintance who is sweet/intellectual/sincere/funny/reasonswhyyoulikehimorher, and can enjoy his or her
sweetness/intellect/sincerity/funniness/allpositivequalitiesassociatedwithhimorher in your life. and hence, you should be glad that you have come across such a person along the long winding road that is your life. there could be a lot of things you can learn, or a deeper level of maturity that you can reach from your relationship with him/her. so regard it as a nikmat. a gift. don't be selfish and want him/her all to yourself lah. haha.
(ok, i MEANT to extract, but takut if i chopped it and I'd destroy it. Hence. Haha.. Credits to kamie. And her sis.)
I shall keep my comments to myself.
ANW, my bro won't be spending raya with us this Tues because he's away in Sydney for some Qurban matters for Saff and won't be back til Thurs. :( Only me and the parents sent him at the airport early last Friday morning, so it was quite a quiet, and nice, affair. I took a short vid using the cam of us in action; was supposed to get my parents to leave some message so that my bro could look at it whenever he misses us, but my mum was forever the "alu-alu cat" (as how my nephew mus'ab used to call it) and refused to say anything, even when my dad tickled to tease her (that was cute, was glad I caught it on cam). My dad said "selamat mengorban kambing" (he was OFF the point) and I said "selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin".
At one point during the wait for him to check in, my mum told me to accompany my bro to draw money and get drinks. And he used that perfect opp to drop the bomb on me. "Nurul, I think I go ahead 1st ah.." Haha! So much for getting married together.
He said, insyaAllah he's attached, and he has talked to my elder bro and sis in law abt it, and roughly he planned to merisik, tunang and kahwin within the next 2-3 years. That was fast, I said. But he countered with some seemingly reliable Islamic thgies, which I don't dare try to republish here in case I got it wrong, and besides, he would really like to ikut Sunnah Rasulullah saw and get married at 25. Ok lar, I wish him the best of luck.
Hmm, I thk this is abt the time I'd get pretty possessive of him. Haha.. Just like how it was with my elder bro. He wouldn't tell me who's the girl! Becaaaausee.. then I'd DEFINITELY know because she too is in Saff. The only clue he gave, just like minutes before he went in the gates (he whispered so that my parents wouldn't hear) that her name starts with N and ends with H. BIG HELP, man. Oh, before that I asked him whether she's younger than me and he wouldn't tell. But he said, "So if she's older, then ok eh?" and I said "ok!" Haha.. It'd just be weirddd for me to have a younger sis-in law lar.. I hope she's pretty and beriman and good with kids and can layan my bro well enough. And me and my parents too! Haha, we come with the package. :D
Hmm... Besides thaaaat.....
Shan pointed out that technically I've won because Katak said in his blog "N HUDA i dont care, its 2-2 now.. " Now that's DIRECT communication isn't it? Haha.. But Katak still hasn't acknowledged my nick regarding this and I'm afraid if I prompt him he'd use that against me. It's ok. I'd wait.. Heheh.. The good thing that came out of this? I got to talk to Perfect! He said "Hi." *grins*
Oh, Shan dedicated avril lavigne's
Complicated to me at the bbq yesterday using Atikk's tablet pc. And he
sorta knows chunks of
my story. So, haa!
Well... was talking to Shad the other day and I just fellllt the thing abt waiting is, it involves time. And
things change with time. Have certain things change? Or
would they change with more waiting? Hmm..
Burger for dinner. Bye!
iFLEW @ 6:11:00 pm
to the now
